Poems indeed I love to write,
and that will never change;
Because whether I'm feeling happy or sad or naught,
The words always treat me just the same.
Poems, to me, are a way of saying,
that in this dry, dull life I have something worth giving.
Poems, to me, are a way of proving,
that dreams don't die, and are worth keeping.
Poems, to me, are a way of preserving,
my thoughts, emotions, and my pent-up feelings.
Poems, to me, are my solace,
safe in words, safe in time.
For poems can be short, or they can be long;
they can rhyme, or they can not
you create your own rules as you move along
and in no way can you ever be wrong.
There's no one who can say it is bad
even when they do you shouldn't be sad
If they don't understand you then it's such a shame
but don't blame them for feelings are never the same.
Clear your mind and let the words flow,
don't hold back and just let them go
Don't be afraid to let people see you,
the You who's living inside you.
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Results from Fruit Drink Tests were "special"
Today was my final measurement test for the fruit drink study I took part in since early February.
At the end of my measurement, I asked the researcher there, Kok Wei, to explain my results a little. He said my results, among all the rest, were very special. Out of the 80 people who took the study, only one-- me, did not follow their hypothesis.
Their hypothesis was that the carotenoids in the fruit drink would make our skin turn yellow and eyes brighter, also partly due to the vitamins inside. In my case, both results were not found. My skin did turn SLIGHTLY yellower (by a marker of 0.71, though I don't know what that means) but according to Kok Wei, he said that that was pretty negligible as others had their skin turning much yellower.
It's highly likely that the carotenoids and vitamins were mostly used to supplement my immune system when I had chicken pox (thus my speedy recovery). Then he also said that even after recovery, it was still used to improve my immune system as neither my skin nor eyes showed any changes.
Mine's a unique case because I got chicken pox during the study. There was a theory that the carotenoids and vitamins could improve our immune system, but there isn't any concrete proof of it as no study can purposely make their subjects sick before taking results. Therefore, my results are kinda interesting to them and also quite important as that sort of proves their theory that, when sick, carotenoids and vitamins will be used in improving our immune system.
Other functions include yellowing skin to protect against UV rays and brightening eyes (improving eyesight?).
Kok Wei said that he might send me e-mails in future to follow up on my case.
At the end of my measurement, I asked the researcher there, Kok Wei, to explain my results a little. He said my results, among all the rest, were very special. Out of the 80 people who took the study, only one-- me, did not follow their hypothesis.
Their hypothesis was that the carotenoids in the fruit drink would make our skin turn yellow and eyes brighter, also partly due to the vitamins inside. In my case, both results were not found. My skin did turn SLIGHTLY yellower (by a marker of 0.71, though I don't know what that means) but according to Kok Wei, he said that that was pretty negligible as others had their skin turning much yellower.
It's highly likely that the carotenoids and vitamins were mostly used to supplement my immune system when I had chicken pox (thus my speedy recovery). Then he also said that even after recovery, it was still used to improve my immune system as neither my skin nor eyes showed any changes.
Mine's a unique case because I got chicken pox during the study. There was a theory that the carotenoids and vitamins could improve our immune system, but there isn't any concrete proof of it as no study can purposely make their subjects sick before taking results. Therefore, my results are kinda interesting to them and also quite important as that sort of proves their theory that, when sick, carotenoids and vitamins will be used in improving our immune system.
Other functions include yellowing skin to protect against UV rays and brightening eyes (improving eyesight?).
Kok Wei said that he might send me e-mails in future to follow up on my case.
Monday, April 22, 2013
I didn't get to join the Student Exchange to go to UK
So... today I just received the email telling me that my application was UNSUCCESSFUL (yes, it was all caps :( ). Oh well... I guess I just have to focus on what's in front of me.
Sunday, April 21, 2013
YMCA + Lot 10 + Lowyat+ Midvalley +Oblivion + Food journey
Sooooo today I had breakfast with Jia En which consist of nasi lemak + hard boiled eggs. We then went to pick up Nut and I drove and parked at Kajang KTM station. Took the KTM to Central KL and walked over to the YMCA building to meet up with Isaiah and all four of us ordered the highly-proclaimed Chicken Katsu Don (basically fried chicken rice bowl). Hmm, if they already used katsu don, why not just use tori katsu don? Well, anyway, FOR ME I THOUGHT IT WAS TERRIBLE.
But nevermind, after that we went to Low Yat (Imbi station), where Khoo bought a laptop cooler, I bought a 16gb pendrive and Isaiah bough an external hard drive. Then we went to take a look at hoopstation and subsequently around Lot 10 and sungai wang. After that, after a surprising request from Khoo to try Snowflakes, we went there and spent the most of our afternoon talking over a cup of icey desserts.
After that we parted ways with Nut and Isaiah as the duo would go and meet their friends; while khoo and I decided to catch a movie at Mid Valley. We bought the tickets to Oblivion at RM 15 each, and since our movie was at 5pm (it was around 4pm at the time) we went to sit down at Paddington's House of Pancakes and try something there.
Oblivion was OK. Not very great, not bad, kinda good. That's about it. I'm really glad that it wasn't some mindless action movie though. Props to that.
After the movie we went to Kim Gary's restaurant.Khoo and I ordered 3 main dishes to be shared by the two of us, and then we signed up for something I don't know what, and got RM 5 vouchers each. With a total of RM 10 free, we ordered one more dish so we shared four dishes between the two of us and it was kinda nice.
After that we went back home and now I'm kinda freaking tired LOL.
But nevermind, after that we went to Low Yat (Imbi station), where Khoo bought a laptop cooler, I bought a 16gb pendrive and Isaiah bough an external hard drive. Then we went to take a look at hoopstation and subsequently around Lot 10 and sungai wang. After that, after a surprising request from Khoo to try Snowflakes, we went there and spent the most of our afternoon talking over a cup of icey desserts.
After that we parted ways with Nut and Isaiah as the duo would go and meet their friends; while khoo and I decided to catch a movie at Mid Valley. We bought the tickets to Oblivion at RM 15 each, and since our movie was at 5pm (it was around 4pm at the time) we went to sit down at Paddington's House of Pancakes and try something there.
Oblivion was OK. Not very great, not bad, kinda good. That's about it. I'm really glad that it wasn't some mindless action movie though. Props to that.
After the movie we went to Kim Gary's restaurant.Khoo and I ordered 3 main dishes to be shared by the two of us, and then we signed up for something I don't know what, and got RM 5 vouchers each. With a total of RM 10 free, we ordered one more dish so we shared four dishes between the two of us and it was kinda nice.
After that we went back home and now I'm kinda freaking tired LOL.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
It's been a hectic week+ Lumia 920+NBS Final Dhamma Talk
I went back home to Melaka last weekend, even though I knew I shouldn't have-- I was going to be super busy this week and going home=> zero productivity.
Well, my mother was going to go to Chiangmai this weekend and I thought I'd come back and wish her safe journeys. After all, what are some results anyway?
On Monday, just before going back to campus for a lab session, I went to buy a NEW PHONE for myself. It's my first SMARTPHONE-- a pretty high end model too: the Nokia Lumia 920. I got it for a pretty low price, relatively, largely thanks to Poh and her connections.
After buying my phone, I drove back to campus and arrived just slightly shy of 5 minutes before my lab started.
***
Yesterday was the final Dhamma Talk organized by the NBS for this semester. I don't know if I'll still be with them come September, but if possible I'd like to spend a lot more time with them. It's really nice to see how far we've come as opposed to September last year when we hardly even knew each other. Personally, for me, I signed up to be part of the committee without knowing anyone else, save Sze Wei and Ryan and Hui Jiun (though we never talked at prior to that). I knew Sumana, as she was the camp commander previously, but I doubt she knew me. Celestine, Chee Ying, Derick, Jian Yuan, Po Ee, Wan Mei, and Zheng Yang made for the core committee members while Bob, King Yew, Yi Xin, and Han Ying joined us after being interviewed later on. A weird rag-tag group of misfits (as most authors like to describe unlikely friends) who, under normal circumstances, would probably not mix with each other all that much.
And it's been an amazing journey. Really. I could probably write a few-thousand word essay on my time here (and I think I probably will, one day when I'm feeling particularly nostalgic). I haven't been able to express my thanks to them enough yet, but I'm sure I'll find a way.
***
I just had a chat with my mom ( like literally, just, as I was typing this), and my train of thought has been changed already, so there's no point in trying to continue this blog post. Anyway, my mom saw a few photos I took from my Lumia during the final NBS Talk and she commented that some of the ladies of NBS, particularly three of them, stood out from the rest. And for the most part, I do agree with her observation. ;)
Anyway, to cut things short,
It's been a hectic week, but I'm hanging on, and I can be 110% sure I'll miss the times I spent with the NBS.
Well, my mother was going to go to Chiangmai this weekend and I thought I'd come back and wish her safe journeys. After all, what are some results anyway?
On Monday, just before going back to campus for a lab session, I went to buy a NEW PHONE for myself. It's my first SMARTPHONE-- a pretty high end model too: the Nokia Lumia 920. I got it for a pretty low price, relatively, largely thanks to Poh and her connections.
After buying my phone, I drove back to campus and arrived just slightly shy of 5 minutes before my lab started.
***
Yesterday was the final Dhamma Talk organized by the NBS for this semester. I don't know if I'll still be with them come September, but if possible I'd like to spend a lot more time with them. It's really nice to see how far we've come as opposed to September last year when we hardly even knew each other. Personally, for me, I signed up to be part of the committee without knowing anyone else, save Sze Wei and Ryan and Hui Jiun (though we never talked at prior to that). I knew Sumana, as she was the camp commander previously, but I doubt she knew me. Celestine, Chee Ying, Derick, Jian Yuan, Po Ee, Wan Mei, and Zheng Yang made for the core committee members while Bob, King Yew, Yi Xin, and Han Ying joined us after being interviewed later on. A weird rag-tag group of misfits (as most authors like to describe unlikely friends) who, under normal circumstances, would probably not mix with each other all that much.
And it's been an amazing journey. Really. I could probably write a few-thousand word essay on my time here (and I think I probably will, one day when I'm feeling particularly nostalgic). I haven't been able to express my thanks to them enough yet, but I'm sure I'll find a way.
***
I just had a chat with my mom ( like literally, just, as I was typing this), and my train of thought has been changed already, so there's no point in trying to continue this blog post. Anyway, my mom saw a few photos I took from my Lumia during the final NBS Talk and she commented that some of the ladies of NBS, particularly three of them, stood out from the rest. And for the most part, I do agree with her observation. ;)
Anyway, to cut things short,
It's been a hectic week, but I'm hanging on, and I can be 110% sure I'll miss the times I spent with the NBS.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Ledger/Account/Financial Book and my "Book of Good Things"
Today I decided to organize my life a little more. It's been getting a little bit messy and out of hand lately to the point where I'm starting to lose my focus. I bought a ledger book to keep track of my financial expenditure because, let's face it, my family is far from what you'd call financially rich. We may be rich in other aspects though, but just not financially. I don't have much plans for that YET, as I'm going to take a few months and see how my spending trend is like. Off the top of my head though? I think I'm pretty thrifty.
I also decided to use the book/journal Isaiah gave me for Christmas late 2012 and call it my "Book of Good Things". I have this handy blog here to remember the important things or events I've gone through in my life. But I don't really have access to a computer 24/7, nor the time to post about every little thing that happens.
Enter the Book of Good Things. When I feel that I've done a good deed, or if someone has done a good thing for me, or even if something that made me smile a little bit happens, I'm going to pull it out and jot it down. Why? Today, while being caught in the jam, I felt really sad, burnt out, demoralized, and empty when I looked back and couldn't remember any achievements or good things. Like suddenly I feel like time has gone and I've wasted every moment of it.
Of course that's not true though, but it's just that I take the good things for granted. That's usually the case with everyone and I'm not an exception. That's why I decided to write down the happy things. And when I go into my empty mode again, I can fill myself up with happy things rather than bad ones.
I also decided to use the book/journal Isaiah gave me for Christmas late 2012 and call it my "Book of Good Things". I have this handy blog here to remember the important things or events I've gone through in my life. But I don't really have access to a computer 24/7, nor the time to post about every little thing that happens.
Enter the Book of Good Things. When I feel that I've done a good deed, or if someone has done a good thing for me, or even if something that made me smile a little bit happens, I'm going to pull it out and jot it down. Why? Today, while being caught in the jam, I felt really sad, burnt out, demoralized, and empty when I looked back and couldn't remember any achievements or good things. Like suddenly I feel like time has gone and I've wasted every moment of it.
Of course that's not true though, but it's just that I take the good things for granted. That's usually the case with everyone and I'm not an exception. That's why I decided to write down the happy things. And when I go into my empty mode again, I can fill myself up with happy things rather than bad ones.
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